Soulful Saturday: My Love

Good afternoon everyone! Are you all having a great Saturday? This Soulful Saturday, I’d like to take a look at something positive- it’ll help counter all the blues from this past week’s pain fest and my related Throwback post on Thursday. I’ve got new meds to get used to and a steroid injection helping my knee be bearable, so I thought I should keep this week’s deep conversation on the lighter, optimistic side. And what’s more sweet than love?

For those of you unaware, I have a boyfriend. He’s a man with a special place in my heart that I never even knew existed until I met him. He’s bad with compliments, so I’m going to pray he never gets to read this blog post- because today, after looking at a list of blog ideas from PopSugar, I decided to go with their ‘things you love about your SO or best friend’ prompt.

This could get long, so I’ll try not to overdo it. But really, I love a lot of things about my honey- things he hates about himself sometimes, even. It’s like a mix of two old sayings: we are our own worst critics, and one man’s trash is another man’s treasure. Only in this case, the person is both his own trash and my treasure. Which sounds weird after I say it… But oh well!

Anyway, let’s start with some of the very basic things I love about him. Things I knew I loved about him before we physically met, to be precise. For starters, he’s helped me grow unimaginably. He lied a fair bit to try to seem older or more suave than he really is, but somehow… I was just that much happier hearing the truth about who he really is. His insecurities somehow charmed me in some way that I can’t comprehend- and instead of my usual switch being flipped into hatred for the lies, I was so grateful for the truth I fell for him harder. Weird, right?

There’s also his creativity. We met on a roleplay forum, so naturally I knew he at least enjoyed communal writing. His writing style fascinates me, because it’s just so different from mine, especially in roleplays. He plans out multiple routes for how his character will grow and bases them on what things happen in the game. The more they feel or experience certain emotions/triggers, the more they’re headed down a specific path. It’s a lot like a visual novel, or a pick your own adventure book- all devised by one person in a group of many.

His natural insecurities both irritate and yet sometimes flatter me. He’s always telling me how I deserve better than him, only to have me remind him better isn’t what I care about. He sees me so highly, it’s sometimes embarrassing because I honestly believe I’m not as great as he makes me sound. That said, the fact he’s honest about his insecurities, and even his jealousy early on, make me feel special in a way I don’t normally imagine or think about. And, naturally, I try to tell him mine just as much, if not maybe too much. I can’t help wanting him to know how much I adore him, and how nervous I get about the idea of losing him.

Now, a bit about things I only learned after meeting him. Some of these were related to things we talked about online, but others were total surprises. Let’s see, where to start…

Well first off, he works hard to be a gentleman towards me. He pulled my chair out at family dinner (I spent the entire week with his family since he lives at home- surprisingly didn’t feel all that awkward after only a couple of hours!). He fought his discomfort with touch to allow me to hug him or hold his hand when my touchy-feely self needed to. He wouldn’t let me pay for pretty much anything, either. Such a charming gentleman- he barely curses at all, too. I feel embarrassed being such a potty mouth when I think about it…

There’s also some of his skills and habits. For starters, even in real life, he doesn’t get as upset as most do for my self-deprecating humor. When I asked why he was staying with an old lady like me, he pointed out it was because he loved her/me. His skills at tending to dogs I knew at least a bit about before we met as well- he often talked about his own dog, Nyx. He knew her well enough to know when it was safe for her to be out of the cage around me midweek, versus the start when she was apparently growling angrily at me for existing at first (honestly I hadn’t noticed, so I was extra impressed!)

He has some great talents, too. His pancakes were absolutely delicious, he has a smile that, to me, lights up the room… and he has a positively adorable Stitch impression that I will never get over.

And my favorite thing about him? Aside the lies at first and the gentlemanly moments, he was the man I was made to expect he was. We spent most of our time in his room- and a lot of that was me watching him playing one of various video games. Luckily, I personally enjoy watching people play games, though only really in person. He was more than willing to explain things about the games to me as he played, and wouldn’t get upset if I suddenly fell asleep while sprawled out on his bed. Basically, he’s a laid-back man with a clear view of what he enjoys, and he doesn’t try to be someone he’s not with me anymore. To me, that’s the perfect catch: someone who won’t try to act more like a ‘regular person’, or like someone that does a lot of different kinds of things. He readily admitted to me he was what he considers a ‘boring person’… But based on my just writing a thousand words about him, I think there’s proof he’s not boring in the least!

I think I’ve rambled enough. Now you know more about my beloved than ever before… So why not tell me about yours in the comments? I’d love to hear all about the ones you love!