{"id":226,"date":"2019-06-01T13:00:35","date_gmt":"2019-06-01T17:00:35","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jrolik.caludin.com\/?p=226"},"modified":"2019-05-31T09:15:26","modified_gmt":"2019-05-31T13:15:26","slug":"soulful-saturday-strengths-and-weaknesses","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jrolik.caludin.com\/index.php\/2019\/06\/01\/soulful-saturday-strengths-and-weaknesses\/","title":{"rendered":"Soulful Saturday: Strengths and Weaknesses"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Good afternoon everyone, and welcome to June! This is a month where change is slowly coming as summer makes its way to the northern hemisphere- not that it feels like it hasn\u2019t already. Still, you\u2019re not here for a lesson on the Gregorian calendar. You\u2019re here for me to pour my soul out today!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

To be completely honest, I had a lot of problems coming up with a topic\u2026 So, I looked at a website full of journaling prompts and said, \u201cHey, I can totally use some of these for blog posts!\u201d And so, I found two prompts that inspired this post: What I see are my good points, and what I dislike about myself.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

If you\u2019re new here, you might not know this, but I\u2019m a person with Borderline Personality Disorder. What that means, in this case, is I\u2019ve been abandoned enough times that I\u2019m very awkward with how I deal with people and life. I can\u2019t fully trust anything or anyone- the line of whether I trust you is as fine as a piece of string. As such, my views of myself are just as opposing as my views of people around me. That right there, that black and white standpoint- that\u2019s one of the things I hate myself for.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

That said, I\u2019ve been learning steadily but surely to recognize the shades of gray in the world. I don\u2019t hate people just for a white lie anymore, at least. And I\u2019ve started to stop hating myself, too. I still dislike some of my qualities, but I\u2019m learning to respect these imperfections and, in some case, learning to see the good in them.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Today, let\u2019s take a look at a few on each list\u2026 And how I\u2019ve grown in relation to them.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The Good<\/strong><\/h2>\n\n\n\n


My blunt honesty<\/strong> – yes, I know being blunt can be bad to some people- but, by being blunt, I earn trust that I won\u2019t lie about something important.

My creativity<\/strong> – I don\u2019t think I\u2019m exceptionally creative, but I\u2019m certainly above average, in my mind.

My inquisitive nature<\/strong> – While my dozens of questions may annoy some people, there are plenty of people who have praised me for trying to gain as great an understanding of the topic as possible. Plus, learning something new every day is just fun!

I\u2019m caring<\/strong> – My ability to care for people has grown over the years. I still have some selfishness in me, but I\u2019ve learned to try to take care of the people around me when they need it. For example, I often try to help my dad when he\u2019s unwell by fetching him food and drink, making sure he\u2019s taking his medicine, and even recommending some of the as needed medications based on his complaints.

I\u2019m clever<\/strong> – I can be very bright at times with good solutions to a problem, and when I\u2019m not able to come up with one, I rely on others to help me rather than let my pride get in the way. (This is one I\u2019ve worked hard to earn!)<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The Not-So-Good<\/h2>\n\n\n\n


I can get quite jealous<\/strong> – I never thought I could get as pouty and jealous as I do these days. That said, it kind of relates to the next point.

I\u2019m a total worry-wart<\/strong> – I still have bad self esteem, and I have anxiety over a lot of things I shouldn\u2019t. This leaks into relationships sometimes, and I\u2019m trying to learn better positivity skills.

I\u2019m slow on the uptake<\/strong> – If you hold a conversation with me, you\u2019ll know I\u2019m a fairly simple-minded person. I\u2019m easy to please, easy to hurt, and insanely easy to confuse.

I\u2019m a natural flirt<\/strong> – I don\u2019t do it intentionally, and I wasn\u2019t aware I was doing it until a friend pointed it out when I asked for a self-description. Apparently, I\u2019m quite good at leading people on\u2026 And I really don\u2019t like that. There\u2019s only one person I want to flirt with! >w<

I\u2019m lazy as all hell<\/strong> – I live a fairly sedentary life. I\u2019m trying to get more active, even if it\u2019s just by walking to the courtyard to get the mail on a regular basis. I\u2019ve also tried taking regular walks, though I\u2019m recently on a decline there. I\u2019m not very prompt with housework, and I spend more time at the computer than I should.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

To be honest, I actually had to get help from friends to figure out some of the features I mentioned- but we are all our own worst critics, so the fact that I struggled to think of my good traits is just a sign I need to work harder on my self-esteem! I\u2019ll be sure to do that now!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Say, friends, what are your good and bad traits? I\u2019d love to see where we\u2019re similar! Let me know in the comments, okay? Take care! \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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